The Problem with Compromising When You Don't Trust Yourself First

My biggest weakness is my inability to trust myself. Even when I know I'm right, I can somehow be suckered into thinking otherwise. I could swear up and down the sky is blue, yet when someone persuasively argues it as pink, I'll shrug my shoulders and say, "okay, you're right"....or something like that.

The oxymoron in my flawed confidence is that I'm a girl who knows exactly what she wants. I'm very in tune with my desires, but somehow I'm always tempted to deny myself of them. Overall, it's a lack of trusting I know what's best for me. Which has led me here: asking myself, "How do I put MYSELF first?"

Most recently, I sacrificed a lot of myself for my ex-boyfriend. I sacrificed my stability and availability to support him in his career. I compromised my convictions in being engaged before a second out-of-state move. In my independent marketing work, I compromise fair pay. The root of this self-destructive cycle? Waiting on others to make decisions FOR me because I don't trust my judgment. Well, at 28, I'm finally putting my foot down!

This chapter in my life offers me the opportunity to STOP selling myself short. Making decisions with confidence is something that (unfortunately) has gone against my very nature. But, not anymore. This time, I'm choosing to trust myself. I'm taking reigns of my life and am not waiting on anyone or anything to change, but instead, will CHOOSE my outcomes. I CAN trust myself - after all, who knows me, better than ... ME.

Hooray for finally making decisions I know to be best for me

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